So I’m back at my mother’s house, visiting for my brother’s graduation (which was yesterday, actually, and great).

But of course, annoyance happens, in the form of how I’m treated because of my weight. Of course, its little things, and at least this time it doesn’t seem to be coming directly from my mom or other family members.

We’ve gone out to eat a couple of times (which my family often does), and both times someone in our party ordered a salad. When the food came, BOTH times the waiter assumed that I was getting the salad!!! Ugh! This may have not been motivated by fat-negative assumptions, but because it happened TWICE, I’m inclined to think otherwise. When we’re at the house, the TV channels my mom usually keeps on are littered with anti-fat programs and commercials – but to my mom’s credit, she noticed me getting uncomfortable with one and changed the channel (thanks mom, I love you!!!). I can also feel myself getting more self conscious about my weight, especially how my face looks, and I caught myself choosing to eat less than normal so no one would think bad of me. And I’ve been having extremely fat-negative dreams, including one in which I was watching a newscast that declared it was unsafe for fat teenagers to masturbate.

*headdesk*

Sorry, I’m still here, so I needed to vent.

EDIT – There were some typos in the first post, so I went and fixed them, and added some more information.

I’m leaving today, and have decided to put a positive, humourous spin on all of this by making a little comic out of it. I’ll post that here when its done.